Good Morning Beautiful

My Dinner with Horatio
or How I met my Rivals
Ballard was a grotesque abomination, although he was correct, the food was delicious.

The fact that we are being framed for the disappearance of the Prince has put me in a real mood to go back to Gary just to kick the shit out of Modius.

There is only one thing to do, find the Prince. This will not be easy with the racist homophobic Sheriff dogging our steps. I hope that when the time comes Raz, Tim and Moonbeam are ready to jump him together, and that my own powers can slow him down enough for it to matter.

Tim's Thoughts - I wish I had never gotten on that fucking helicopter
Mistakes in Life, Mistakes in Death

The power structure of Chicago are a nest of manipulative fucks catering to their own worst desires. Horatio Ballard is a gluttonous and disgusting mass of inhuman flesh whose manipulative zeal and thirst for power are unmatched in my experience working for the Chicago police department. And, sincerely, that is saying a great deal.

The sheriff of Chicago is equally disgusting. I mistakenly thought my racist proclivities were untenable for to my long term existence, but this thing with a badge is a vile piece of work. I can only imagine Calais learned to control his temper after our unfortunate collision in the Succubus Club, else he draw a gun and get himself snuffed out.

At this point I hope we never find this Prince. If his appointees are a reflection of his leadership, Chicago is better without him.

Nealy. I’m not sure of the proper spelling of his name, but he seems to be the only reasonable Vampire in this power structure. I wonder what horrors he hides beneath his slick veneer of politeness.

My fellow vampires are screwed. We must determine the fate of this awful prince within the day, else we are to be destroyed by this emotional meat grinder called Chicago. If the homosexual Ventrue in our group is as manipulative as these other Ventrue, he must be carefully watched. Calais showed far more control than I did, and I respect him for that. The hippy woman was clearly out of her league for such political machinations. I guess following the Grateful Dead with a patchouli laced Gangrel sire left her unprepared for these horrible demons.

My demons were released tonight, which I woefully regret. Khalid, the other Nosferatu I met, was kind to remind me that our outer disfigurement is only a mask. I do fear that my nature is the same as these Venture and that disgusting sheriff. I struggle to keep my beast caged in face of utter injustice.

I must explore Khalid’s network further. He offered the only peace I have experienced outside my family since my transformation to Vampire.

H.R. 18852
The We Can Say it Act of 1968

Who can say the N-word?


Tim's Thoughts - Monkeys with Guns
The rant of a racist Chicago cop turned vampire

That fucking !*(%#@ shot me. To be precise, he tried to shoot me. All I did was call him what I hear his kind calling each other all day and apparently they’re s sensitive about it. I mean what’s the big fucking deal? He’s no longer human. None of us are. We’re better than human, we are vampires!

I’m a fucking police officer!

If I was still a cop, I would have smacked him in the face with my club, thrown him handcuffed in the back of the van and given him a rough ride. Who the fuck does he think he is. Screeching his fucking rap music. When that shit tard lost that, fuck what’s it called, rap battle or some shit, I fucking laughed so hard in my head almost split open.

Wait, fuck. I’m not cop anymore. I gotta fucking chill out. I’m the Primogen of Gary.

Jesus fucking Mary and Goddamed Joseph. Gary. That old fucking Prince is a piece of fucking work. That geezer is fucking nuts… making a Nosferatu his Primogen just for some fancy fucking smoke blown up his gray molding ass.

How the fuck do I get out of this. You fucked yourself hard, Timmy boy. Fucked yourself hard.

Oh, I think that restaurant vampire is a ball sucking #@^^)T. Not that I have a problem with that. Just saying. He’s a nice guy, but if I fucking catch him looking at my &(C!, I’m going to smash his face too.

Don’t get me started on the hippy.

What the fuck am I doing?

File Under: Brujah

“Across practices, across cultures, and throughout historical periods, when people support and engage in violence, their primary motivations are moral. By ‘moral’, I mean that people are violent because they feel they must be; because they feel that their violence is obligatory. They know that they are harming fully human beings. Nonetheless, they believe they should. Violence does not stem from a psychopathic lack of morality. Quite the reverse: it comes from the exercise of perceived moral rights and obligations.”

People are violent because their moral codes demand it – © Aeon Media Ltd. 2015

Fuck Jazzy!

It had been about 3 minutes since Raz’s pager had started blowing up.


The “153-4487” meant the page was from his dawg Lil’Troy.
12-118? 12th and 118th street.
The #911 meant something was seriously fucked up.

Raz knew he should be in a hurry. This nonsense with Jazzy was over. What the fuck did Jazzy-fuckin’-sellout-Jeff know about The struggle anyway? He turned his back on the movement as soon as his first single dropped and he never looked back. Raz quickly determined that Jazzy would pay for this stunt tonight. Somehow or another he would make him pay. It was just a matter of time. Something which Raz knew he had in abundance these days. He grabbed his coat and stormed out, stepping on Jazzy’s sneaker as he crossed in front of him to go. Air Jordan’s, typical.

12 minutes later, Raz rolled up and walked down a weeded overgrown path to a derelict looking house on the North side of Gary. The porch light flickered as the front door stood wide open. The place otherwise looked empty. When he stepped through the front door, he stopped – listening to the frantic whispering and labored breathing he could hear down the hall to his right. At his feet was a faint trail of blood and plasma, streaked across the floor, leading down the hall. His eyes flashed and his nostrils flared as it took every ounce of willpower he had not to immediately frenzy at the sight, ripping through the house and tearing anyone who might be inside limb to limb. He took a deep breath and slowly walked down the hall.

At the end of the hallway, two bodies were slumped against the wall, one cradling the other in it’s arms. Upgrade lay lifeless in Lil’Troy’s arms as he rocked him back and forth, frantically whispering over and over…

“don’t die on me man… stay with me… don’t you fucking die on me…”

Raz walked over and stood looking down on them, like a father looks down on a child.

“Get off the floor Troy.”

“Raz he’s fucked up, he’s dyi..”

“I said get the fuck up!”

Raz reached down with an inhuman like quickness, grabbed Lil’Troy by the collar and pulled him up to his feet, pinning him against the wall.

“You wanna tell me how this shit happened?”

“Somebody stabbed him dawg, I don’t know, deal went south and before I knew it some jacked up crack-head pulled a knife, grabbed the shit and flew outa’ here faster than I ever seen a cracker move in my life… like he had wings or sumptin’ dawg.”

Raz sucked his teeth as he contemplated what he had just heard.

“Wait outside.”

He threw Lil’Troy down the hall causing him to stumble and slip on the blood streak on the floor as he scampered out of the house. When he was gone, Raz kneeled down and grabbed Upgrade by the chin, looking straight into his near lifeless eyes.

“What you gone and got yo’self into now my cousin? Huh? You careless lil’ punk. Gimme one good reason I shouldn’t just leave yo’ butter face ass lyin’ on this floor. Huh? You aint got nuttin’ to say fo yo’self? Huh? Whats that? You’ll owe me? Yes my brotha. You will. You sure as fuck will.”

Upgrade stared back into his eyes, unable to talk as a spit bubble started to form on his lips. Raz shook his head in disgust. After a quick moment, Raz brought his own wrist up to his mouth, drew one of his fangs across his vein and quickly thrust his palm into Upgrade’s face, stopping just short of shattering his nose in the process. With his other hand, he grabbed the back of Upgrade’s neck, slowly pulling his mouth to the exposed vein. Raz raised his chin, took a deep breath, and looked up at the ceiling for a minute.

Two minutes later, Raz walked out of the house, stepping over Lil’Troy who sat on the porch, head hanging in his hands. Lil’Troy stood up slowly and looked coldly at Raz’s back as he walked down the path away from the house.


Lil’Troy jumped in fright as he spun around to see Upgrade standing in the doorway behind him, looking like nothing at all had happened. Upgrade started to laugh.

“dont die on me man… dont you fucking die on me…” He said in a mocking tone as he brushed by Lil’Troy and walked down the path after Raz, laughing all the while.

“Come on my brothas!”

Raz looked back over his shoulder as he walked away from the house into the night.

“We got ourselves a lil’ cracked-out cracker to hunt down…”

Raz Calais - Origins

Never knew no better cause my mommy never taught me, Going out to get the shit that mommy never bought me.

...and so it begins...
Gary, Indiana

A Land of Desolation and Sorrow.


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